“This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all.” 1 John 1:5 (TNIV)
Friday, May 23, 2008
Moving On
For those that want to find me...I've moved to facebook with my name: Julia Schirmers.
If you find me there, after looking here, drop me a note and let me know.
This is not to say that I won't be back here ever again. Just that I'm not intentionally going to post. Not that I did very regularly anyhow.
Peace!!
Thursday, February 14, 2008
What do I really want for my birthday?
I often struggle with offering up anything for people to get me, mostly because I'm not one to dwell on the stuff I don't have, but to dwell on the blessings in life. Okay, I'm not bragging, but I see my humility is going to be put to the test here. It's not that I see myself as better than others because I don't wish for personal things, but that I really just don't think about these things very much.
My birthday is coming up here in another week, and I'm getting the same kinds of questions from my mother-in-law, my husband, my mom, etc.
These intangible things seem so difficult to tell them, but this is what I'm thinking.
I want time to write, to take pictures with a better camera, more time to write, time to sing out loud with my friends, to get a new computer for home - maybe a laptop, to walk on the beach with my daughter when it's warm, to build sandcastles with my son near the water, to kiss my husband long and hard without our children interrupting, to walk and hold hands with my husband along a quiet stretch of sandy beach without saying a word. I want to lose some weight and keep it off, and to be able to run again without being totally exhausted after one mile. I wish for deeper relationships with the friends I have, and to be more appreciative of those who want to build a friendship.
Everyone - okay almost everyone - at work is on facebook. I have yet to dive into that world, although I've heard it's much easier to post a daily note versus an entire blog post. Let me know your thoughts. Not many people follow my blog - mostly because I don't post very often. But if you're here - then thank you for reading my blog. I hope you'll comment to tell me you're here. I usually take this space to vow to be better about posting. That's not going to happen - no vows, not necessarily going to post more, either. But, I'll do what I can in this season of life.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Am I a foodie?
According to Wiki:
Foodie is an informal term for a particular class of aficionado of food and drink. The word was coined in 1984 by Paul Levy, Ann Barr, and Mat Sloan for their book The Official Foodie Handbook.
Check out : What is a foodie, anyway? on Slashfood.com.
She says anyone can be a foodie. But, I'm not sure I'm in the category yet - as mostly I just love to eat food, create food, research recipies, and see what other foodies have cooking. Although Nicole seems to think you just have to want to know things about food, and have a thirst for knowledge about food, then I guess that's what I am. After all, I don't have a friend that doesn't like to eat good food. Well, I have some friends who are picky eaters, but they know what they like.
I'm hoping a better knowledge of food - and nutrition - will help me stay away from nasty tasting dry baked goods that are terribly bad for my body, and will turn me towards healthy things I already love to eat - red peppers, herbed chicken, fresh fruit. Okay, is that convincing enough to my subconscious to stay away from birthday cake?
Hmmm...anyone getting hungry?
Monday, February 11, 2008
New music and lots of heart

Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Auld Lang Syne - Remembering 2007
My daughter chose to be baptized in Christ at Easter time - shortly after her 8th birthday. She chose me as her sponsor, and what a priviledge that was.My nephew (brother's son) graduated from high school in the spring, and my sister flew in from Seattle for the weekend. It was good to all be together, although it was a difficult weekend relationally. The disfunctionality of our family was so extremely hurtful and brought to light in many ways. I'm sad it didn't turn out better or change things between us, but it's what it is, and I'm okay with that for now. Auntie met my kids for the first time, and it was good for them to get to know her a little bit.
Fall brought us indoors more. The Children's Museum held a Curious George exhibit, and our son enjoyed it much.
CHORUS:
For auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we'll take a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.
And surely you’ll buy your pint cup !And surely I’ll buy mine !And we'll take a cup o’ kindness yet,for auld lang syne.
CHORUS
We two have run about the slopes,and picked the daisies fine ;But we’ve wandered many a weary foot,since auld lang syne.
CHORUS
We two have paddled in the stream,from morning sun till dine (dinner time) ;But seas between us broad have roared since auld lang syne.
CHORUS
And there’s a hand my trusty friend !And give us a hand o’ thine !And we’ll take a right good-will draught, for auld lang syne.
CHORUS
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Does it matter in the life of a child?
Well, one project her teacher had the class do was to write out their personal goals for the year. My daughter wrote me a letter, and folded it neatly in thirds, and put her name and address in the return address spot, and my name and address in the recipient spot, like a business envelope.
I asked if she wanted me to read it right away, or if I should wait. She said I could read it whenever I wanted to, so I waited...and it was a good thing I did. Once we got home and I was able to settle down on the couch for a moment, I neatly lifted the blue smiley face star sticker that sealed it, unfolded it, read it, and cried. Not just a tiny trickle of a tear...but gushing waterfalls and heaving sobs came rushing out of my face uncontrollably - so much so that my husband seemed very concerned and came over to read what I just opened. These are the times I'm once again grateful that God placed him in my life.
I suppose my reaction to the letter was just unleashing the stress of the past few months on the job, and at home...or perhaps grieving yet more transition and friends moving on from my workplace. I love working in ministry a lot, but I'm finding that I'm quite dissappointed in how often people move on - and how God's plan is to grow us, which requires much change. Yes, yes, we all know that a fully grown frog looks nothing like a tadpole, a fully grown oak tree looks nothing like the acorn, and a fully grown human looks nothing like the infant it once was. And yet, even as an adult, I realize just how much growing I'm still doing. It's frightening. I don't know how to react or how to continue to stretch and grow. No wonder they call them growing pains - because they really do hurt.
My mom has been stuggling the past two years with periodic episodes of hypoglycemia. As a diabetic for 15 years, she's had to be very careful about what she eats and how she takes her medicine, and yet being "careful" could bring her into a coma when her blood sugars are too low, and she cannot function as a human being. She exercises regularly, lives independently, and eats nutritiously. But yet, she continues to have episodes like this more and more often. The many times I've called her and she's responded incoherently, or slowly, or she simply cannot move or respond at all have been terribly frightening. And anyone who has lost a parent or has been close to an ill parent can understand what I mean. It just shouldn't be this way. The person I've looked up to my whole entire life should be independent and setting an example of how to grow old gracefully, not stuggling with staying alive.
Because I'm closest to her (both geographically, and because I'm the oldest daughter) she relys on me for help with things around the house, and she helps me out by watching the kids, helping with laundry, and even with financial assistance. We're very close. We've had to establish accountability routines with each other, and that has also brought us closer. She calls me each morning at 6:30am, and that way I know that she is awake and alert, and that her blood sugar is not too low. I also call her each afternoon on my way home from work, to see how her day was and to check to be sure she has eaten a meal recently or has had a snack. I'd do anything to keep what we have going, but anything can happen, and life has a way of changing things. There's only one constant and that is that things change. And so, for the past several weeks, her blood sugars have remained more stable, she's regaining an appetite for nutritious food, and is beginning to feel much better about her health. I haven't had to worry as much about her, because she is now better able to control her blood sugar, and is able to eat when she's hungry - and she actually is feeling hungry again.
And then, it's sometime's the simplest things that make me wonder if the life I'm living is worthwhile. God brings to me a little sweetness and a memory of what life and LOVE is supposed to taste, feel, look, smell, and sound like. Like the taste of dark chocolate covered fresh strawberries dipped in soft cream cheese, the feel of a warm down comforter wrapped around me as I'm drifting off to sleep, the look of my son's face as he smiles with wide eyes and deep dimples, the smell of my husband's skin as he comes home from work, or after he's been playing hard with our kids, and the sound of my daughter's voice as she reads a book outloud or says her prayers before bed, or the roar of a hometown crowd at the world series when Red Sox pitcher Curt Schilling strikes out a Colorado batter in the World Series. (Yes, the game is on in the background. Have you seen the movie "Fever Pitch?")
I'm encouraged when I get to see and hear that the people around me are affected by the way I choose to live, and the things I choose to do. Like insisting that homework be done before play, or that all things must take priority somewhere - and that really does include my family, and that mom needs to learn how to eat healthy snacks.
Although I get a lot of whines, wimpers and outright defiance from my daughter when we're working on something that's difficult for her...I often wonder if she cares, and does it matter? Although my mom insists that she's alright and has everything under control - even when I nag her about going to test her blood sugar level, I wonder if she cares, and does it matter? When my mom calls to say "I just needed to hear your voice" I second guess myself and wonder if it matters.
Here's the letter my daughter wrote...in her exact words - letter by letter, space by space. And, it was legible. Good job, honey-girl.
Dear mom,
Thank you for helping me with my spelling.
My goal for the y ear is to work on my hand writeing.
Love,
Layne
P.S. I love you.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
5K results
Results: 5K in 51.6minutes.
Most of the other runners - my friends - ran it in 28 or 30 minutes.
I also found out that I've got some really great friends - especially the one that stuck through until I came in to the finish line, and re-ran the last .25mi with me and encouraged me to sprint to the end - which I never would have done without her. Thanks, Julie. Your encouragement and motivation through training, and during the run was a huge help to me, and it meant a lot.
I've stopped running - lots of excuses, but of course it only takes one.
And, I'm pushing myself to consider other exercise options. Running made me feel better about myself, as well as feel good physically. I may pick it up again sometime, but for now...I'm looking for indoor exercise, like lifting my fork to my mouth. Ha.
Friday, August 17, 2007
GO! Northside 5K FunRun
GO! Northside 5K FunRun
I began my training with a 25 minute run/walk in mid July - and with only one week to go, I’m not even close to getting up to 3 miles in my training. But, it is facinating to see how far I can push myself, and how I can push a little harder and farther each time I'm out running.
I guess I’d better push it harder this week, and see what my body will let me get away with.
I’ll let you know what I find out.
Thursday, August 09, 2007
Irish Fair - this weekend!!

http://www.irishfair.com/
See you there!! We're going to be there on Saturday this weekend...and take in some Irish Stew, Fish 'n' Chips, and good ol' Bailey's Irish Creme Cheesecake.
Cara Irish Pubs Main Stage
7:00 pm - Sheep Herding Demonstration - O'Reilly's Border Collies
7:30 pm - Gaelic Storm
9:00 pm - The Young Dubliners
Lots of fun, dancing, events for the kids...
Photos to follow.
Friday, May 25, 2007
Blackbird
I pray for peace for my family, and envision him meeting the Creator.
Just listening to a favorite Beatle's song...whistle along if you remember the tune.
Paul McCartney said this song's about civil rights. In England girls are called birds, so this is Paul singing to a blackgirl, saying don't give up the fight.
I imagine taking the brokenness of all that I am, and flying away to Jesus.
I think I want this played at my funeral.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free.
Blackbird fly,
Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.
Blackbird fly,
Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Friday, April 13, 2007
It's personal: The beginning of the race conversation
I began this post on March 28, but left it for awhile. Now, the news of Don Imus - and so many others - who are deeply unaware of how their thoughts on the world around them come out in verbal comments - and how they hurt others...makes me think deeper about my own "stuff" on race. The following is just one story, of which, I have many.
When I was a child, growing up in suburban Minneapolis area, I played with my blonde-haired blue eyed caucasian friends, and for the most part, we didn't even know that we were different. They say that hate is learned from others, and many times from our parents.
In fact, in Junior High, when a dark skinned friend of mine asked me to go to a movie with him...my mother was sure to remind me how difficult life would be if were ever to marry a black man. huh? She proceeded to tell me how life for any children of mixed races are very difficult.
pause...Well, really?? Wasn't I already a product of this? Didn't she think I understood what being a mixed race person was about in this society? She didn't think that Japanese and White have the same prejudices as Black and White/Japanese??? Come on...
So, as it turned out, I never did go to that movie with him, or date him on any level. In fact, that was most likely the end of our friendship.
Race is becoming a very emotional topic for me lately. Not sure what God is stirring in me. I just know that I need to start paying attention. So, if I get some time, my goal is to blog my thoughts & feelings here.
If you haven't experienced it yet, I'd really encourage you to check out the MN Science Museum's exhibit on Race. Interesting conversation...at least I think so. Mostly because for me...it's personal.
Listening to my favorites again
Spending my time sleep walking
Moving my mouth but not saying a thing
Hoping the changes would take by working their way from the outside in
I was in love with an idea
Preoccupied with how a life should appear
Spending my time at the surface repairing the holes in the shiny veneer
There are so many ways to hide
There are so many ways not to feel
There are so many ways to deny what is real
And I just showed up for my own life
And I'm standing here taking it in and it sure looks bright
I'm going to live my life inspired
Look for the holy in the common place
Open the windows and feel all that's honest and real until I'm truly amazed
I'm going to feel all my emotions
I'm going to look you in the eyes
I'm going to listen and hear until it's finally clear and it changes our lives
There are so many ways to hide
There are so many ways not to feel
There are so many ways to deny what is real
And I just showed up for my own life
And I'm standing here taking it in and it sure looks bright
Oh the glory of God is man fully alive
Oh the glory of God is man fully alive
There are so many ways to hide
There are so many ways not to feel
There are so many ways to deny what is real
And I just showed up for my own life
And I'm standing here taking it in and it sure looks bright
(Lyrics taken from www.lyricsmania.com)
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Monday, January 29, 2007
Books for Soldiers
If you have used books that are just sitting on your bookshelf
collecting dust...
If you thoroughly enjoyed reading a book and you tell everyone you see
about it...
If you inherited some books because a loved one has died or moved...
If you found an old box of books that you can't justify reading again...
One more resource I may have mentioned a long time ago...
www.booksforsoldiers.com
Friday, January 26, 2007
Worth Dying For
“A man who won’t die for something is not fit to live.”
Martin Luther King, Jr.
Check out this opinion article on Military.com.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
It's a good day today
Today is my boy’s 2nd birthday. Yes, we’re excited, and love how fun he is becoming, and how the words of a toddler just make us giggle.
Whenever we’re in the store, he identifies characters that he sees on any merchandise, no matter how small.
Bah-budge (Sponge Bob), Thomas (the tank engine), Q-Q (Blue’s Clues), and Bah-da-bidda (Bob the Builder) all show up in the bath aisle, or the towels and bedding aisles. I turn around to look at what he sees, and it amazes me how he can pick out a small picture of Thomas from such a long distance away. He’s constantly looking for things that are familiar to him.
Yesterday afternoon, as we picked up his sister at school, we peeked out of the car seat at the sky for a good 1-2 minutes looking at a very noisy jet airplane that was passing overhead. Everything seems to be amazing to him, and such a sweet gift for me to be able to watch him experience life like this.
And, I bought a new Bible last night. It’s not for me…it’s for a soldier in Iraq who gave his away to his interpreter who was interested and came to a Bible study with him this past Sunday. The email from him was so touching, to see how God is moving in his life, and in the life of others he’s coming in contact with. The army forbids any soldier from converting any Iraqis to their religion. However, these two talk about culture and religion in their interest in creating friends. Such a sweet story, I’ll have to share it later…but it touched my heart so deeply, that I’m sending him a care package this week.
If you think of it, pray for Matt & “Rock” his interpreter friend.
Yes, God is good, all the time.
Friday, January 12, 2007
Loving a Person
Loving A Person by Sara Groves
Album: Add to the Beauty (2005)
Loving a person just the way they are, it's no small thing
It takes some time to see things through
Sometimes things change, sometimes we're waiting
We need grace either way
Hold on to me
I'll hold on to you
Let's find out the beauty of seeing things through
There's a lot of pain in reaching out and trying
It's a vulnerable place to be
Love and pride can't occupy the same spaces baby
Only one makes you free
Hold on to me
I'll hold on to you
Let's find out the beauty of seeing things through
If we go looking for offense
We're going to find it
If we go looking for real love
We're going to find it
Loving a person just the way they are, it's no small thing
It takes some time to see things through
Sometimes things change, sometimes we're waiting
We need grace either way
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Military Ministry
Another resource to think about as many of our military men and women are serving away from home this Christmas. Please pray for the soldiers, airmen, sailors and marines of the
As a ministry of Campus Crusade for Christ, Military Ministry is helping send Rapid Deployment Kits (Each RDK includes a small camouflage New Testament with Psalms and Proverbs, an Our Daily Bread devotional guide, and a copy of Would You Like to Know God Personally? packaged in a waterproof bag designed to slip into a uniform pocket.)
God bring Peace and stillness to the planet.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Skyline

Driving into work this morning, I had a beautiful view of the Minneapolis Skyline.
(This is not my picture...I can't photograph and drive at the same time.)
I was thinking about how the skyline of my life has changed, yet I'm still the same person. New York City's skyline changed dramatically on Sept 11, 2001...yet it's still the same city, sort of.
I've added marriage, children and career to my skyline. The smaller buildings don't get seen from a distance, but the large ones in my life are visible to anyone who takes a look. I'm still the same creature that God created me to be...but I'm not fully there yet. Still under construction, I suppose. That's good, I wouldn't want to think that I'm finished learning yet. So much of the world I just don't understand. My city seems to be sprawling as I grow older, adding friends and loved ones, and watching my children grow.
But, it's interesting to see how a change in the angle, the direction, how the same skyline at the same time of day can look completely different, from a different perspective. I suppose my life looks different to others who don't know me than to those that do. Do I look the same from any angle?
As we move towards the end of 2006, I'm reflecting on what this past year has brought, and how much road construction I see ahead for 2007. What will God bring this year? Will I have joy, sorrow, questions, answers, loneliness, prosperity, peace, love, patience, anger, hesitancy, resentment, humility?
Romans 8:17-25
17And we know we are going to get what's coming to us - an unbelievable inheritance! We go through exactly what Christ goes through. If we go through the hard times with him, then we're certainly going to go through the good times with him! 18 That's why I don't think there's any comparison between the present hard times and the coming good times. 19 The created world itself can hardly wait for what's coming next. 20 Everything in creation is being more or less held back. God reins it in 21 until both creation and all the creatures are ready and can be released at the same moment into the glorious times ahead. Meanwhile, the joyful anticipation deepens.
What do you bring me, oh Lord? What will the skyline look like from 2007?
I do anticipate good times ahead...but one never knows the path you have for us in this life, in this city. I'm thankful for the blessings You've delivered, and anticipating the things this life has yet to show me.
Bring it on! I'm ready.
Monday, August 21, 2006
Cat's Cradle and other games
Since my daughter doesn't have a sister, her 'best friend' (for now) came to our apartment for their first sleep-over a couple of weeks ago. They both behaved very well, and aside from this friend leaving her swimsuit, a pair of shoes, a pair of shorts, and some hair ties...they played Barbies and watched a mermaid movie. It was some days after this sleep-over that she became interested in the string thing.
So, since I, too, struggled to remember how to play...we kept going around to the same loops again and again...I decided "Let's check the internet."
Here's what I found. So much fun...we may have to check out origami, too.
www.momsminivan.com
www.ifyoulovetoread.com
www.whimsical-workshop.mb.ca/index.html
www.darsie.net/string
